i feel like i should put something important here...

HEY EVERYONE

4 months ago - 95 views
HEY EVERYONE
hey remember me?
 
i'm back on poly!
i took a bit of an impromptu break just cause college started and stuff
 
i still kinda wanna get back into roots but only if someone else does too haha
 
oh and of course FU!!!
omg
i miss FU so much
i feel like i should've documented my first year of college and translated it into clare's...
wow that would've been smart
and a really good idea
blaaaah
great
 
haha
well i'm back yo
maybe i'll publish a story soon! :D
 

love any of yous who are reading this!
 

-lily

HAAAAPPPPYYY BIIIRRTTHHHDDAAAAY

7 months ago - 307 views
HAAAAPPPPYYY BIIIRRTTHHHDDAAAAY
HEY @hopscotchandheritage SIERRA WHAAZ UP
 
OH YEAH ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!
 

I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!
 
17 YEARS IS SUCH A MAJOR MILESTONE!!
 
HAVE AN AMAZING BIRTHDAY!!
 
you are an amazing person and i can't believe you're not famous because you're so full of life, talent, and really really funny jokes.
 
i look forward to being in your 17th year
 

 
EW CHEESY WHO WROTE THAT RIGHT?
 
HAHAHA
 

BUT SERIOUSLY
HAVE A GOOD BIRTHDAY
 
I LUHB YOU KIDDO
 

 
-LILY

but what is so headstrong as youth?

8 months ago - 54 views
but what is so headstrong as youth?
I NEED TO FINISH MY STORY FOR ROOTS GUYS!!!!!
 
but... i'm reading jane eyre and so that's probably never gonna happen... especially since the amount of times i've fallen asleep outweighs the words i've read... D:

MOLLY

8 months ago - 194 views
MOLLY
@molliana
 
so i'm really bad human being
and totally did not know it was your birthday a few days ago
I AM SO SORRY
 
but now i'm making up for it by making you a set
 
YAY
 
even though this set... was actually originally for something else...
i just changed the picture and slapped your tag in the description box
and called it your birthday set
 

man i'm pathetic
 

i guess what i'm trying to say is
HOLYMOLLYMOLYHAPPAYBIRTHDAAAAAAY!
;D
 
i hope your birthday was ammmmmmmmmzng
 
cause you are an amazing girl. (:
loads and lots and tons and tots of love
 

- lily
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
what the hell is a tot of love!?!!?!

too much raw emotion, darling.

9 months ago - 196 views
too much raw emotion, darling.
WHY IS THIS TWO MONTHS LATE?!?!?!
because i am super lazy.
 

||
 
Clare Daniels
FU
 
||
 

i still didn't know where i stood with sam.
 

a few days ago he asked me to come to his house--
and i thought we'd settle things.
because Vincent and i...
 

we were just friends... right?
 

however, when i got to Sam's house i actually ended up
having fun, which was the farthest thing from my mind.
especially since it was scrabble with /Aspen/.
 

so i still didn't know where i stood with Sam.
 

was he mad at me that i "kissed" Vincent?
was he sad that i "kissed" Vincent?
would he even forgive me?
 

i banished the thoughts from my head.
today was suppose to be a happy day.
 

so when i ran into Vincent,
i tried to be happy,
even though my smile collapsed.
 

"hey," he said sadly.
 

"hi."
my voice echoed his,
but it had a twinge of fear in it.
 

i didn't know where i stood with Vincent either.
i don't even know where he got the idea we /kissed/.
 

"we're graduating!"
he said, trying to force excitement.
 

i laughed, trying my best not to break into tears.
"i can't believe it!"
 

even if i was the new girl at Kennedy,
i still felt like i was somehow attached to this place now.
 

i looked at Vincent.
after we danced at prom
i was deflated and drained.
i would barely talk to him and i
think he noticed the difference.
 

"Vincent-"
"Clare-"
 

i laughed.
"you go first."
 

he laughed too.
"no, you."
 

i sighed.
i started twiddling my thumbs.
"i don't know how you got the idea that i kissed you-"
 

"you're joking right?!"
he interjected.
"we... i know it. i'm not crazy."
 

i looked at the floor.
"i know you're not but-"
 

"we kissed!"
 

"we're friends!"
i backfired.
"look, i'm sorry but-"
 

"so that's how it's gonna be?"
Vincent asked.
i was immediately scared of my oldest friend.
 

"what do you mean?"
i asked feebly.
 

"you break up with Sam,
kiss me on the rebound, and then...
tell everyone that you didn't?"
 

i felt my heart breaking.
because i really did love Vincent.
but not in the way that he wanted me to.
 

"i'm sorry Vincent but it just-"
 

he shook his head.
"you know what?"
his voice was sharp.
it dug deep into my stomach.
"forget it."
 

it all happened so quickly--
Vincent grimaced,
looked down,
twisted through the crowd,
 

and before i knew it,
i had lost my oldest friend.
 

and the worst part--
i didn't know why.
 

i looked down at my shoes
and suddenly the ground was dotted with tears.
i collapsed onto my knees and held my head in my hands.
 

"i'm fine... i'm fine... i'm fine i'm fine i'm fine i'm FIIIINNNEE I'M FIIIIINNEE--!"
 

"CLARE!"
 
i looked up.
i wiped my eyes
and the fuzzy silhouette became clearer.
 

i groaned
and my eyes fled toward the ground.
 

"are... are you okay?"
 

"please go away, Sam."
 

i heard him shifting from side to side.
then, his voice became harsher.
"why are you mad at me?"
 

i whirled up.
with my heels we
were now the same height.
 

"JUST GO AWAY SAM!"
 

his eyes widened.
his brows furrowed.
his mouth fell into a straight line.
 

"did i do something wrong?!"
he asked defensively.
"cause i'm pretty sure you enjoyed yesterday with me and Asp."
 

my head fell into my hands again.
"i just... i can't right now, Sam!"
 

he was slightly taken aback.
i wasn't sure if he was hurt
or just plain mad.
 

"so... so what? we're back to being mad at each other or something?"
 

"i don't know!"
i yelled feebly.
 

"Clare..."
 

"JUST GO SAM!"
i screamed, trying to choke back tears that were reforming.
 

"fine then,"
he said.
"if you wanna be a fu/cking bi/tch about it... go ahead."
 

that got me angry.
"i'm not a bi/tch-!"
 

"you know, i don't get you, Clare.
one moment you're like, let's dance Sam.
then Vincent's all like, we kissed, Clare.
and then you're like, let's have fun with Aspen and Sam,
and now it's like, get the fu/ck away from me, Sam."
 

i was silent.
my anger deflated.
 

Sam continued,
"make up your mind:
what the hell do you wanna do with your life.
it's your life, so i'm pretty sure you should have a say in how you destroy it."
 

it all happened so quickly--
Sam grimaced,
looked down,
twisted through the crowd,
 

and before i knew it,
i had lost the boy i loved.
 

what's wrong with me?
what's wrong with me?
what's wrong with me?
 

: i simply don't know.
 

i walked to the graduation ceremony,
a blank expression scrawled across my face.
 

i took my seat
like hundreds of others in identical caps and gowns.
 

i finally felt like i fit.
 

but i knew that once i shed my cap and gown,
i would still be a misfit.
--who couldn't make up her mind.
 

i listened half-heartedly as the valedictorian said her speech.
something about rockstars and pop songs and success
and never forgetting these for years and things that
no longer made any sense or purpose to me.
 

my cap flew into the air,
that blank expression still glued to my face.
 

and at that moment,
i turned back to Clare:
 

the misfit.
 

my dad took dozens of pictures of me;
they forced me out of this blank expression
and into a facade of lies.
 

i guess that's what i really am:
a facade of lies--
something you have to force to
get answers, or feelings or results.
 

after i was blinded by the flash,
i walked to my car, alone.
 

my dad left early to entertain family.
 

there were other girls with friends and they laughed
at their diplomas and caps and gowns and memories.
 

i was jealous of them.
 

and then, i saw her across the field.
a blonde.
with a bright smile.
and perfectly straight hair.
 

i approached her.
 

even though we left our relationship on a sour note,
i wanted to congratulate her.
this wasn't something i wanted to regret later in life.
 

"hi...
Kate."
 

she turned around and looked at me for a second.
then her eyes dropped and her lips shifted to one side,
as if she was deciding what to do with me--which was what everyone was trying to do.
 

"congrats!"
i managed.
"we've graduated!"
 

maybe if things were different
we would be celebrating...
like i had saw Aspen and Darcy and a boy do.
 

there was a subtle smile on her lips.
"you too."
but she said it half-heartedly; robotic.
 

"well... i better... you know... go."
i gave her a side hug
which she took awkwardly.
 

"Clare-"
 

and i stopped walking away.
 

her eyes were suddenly sad--
like she finally decided what she wanted from me.
 

"hm?"
 

her eyes ran to the floor.
and i could see the nervousness seep out of her:
she was twiddling her thumbs, biting her lip, and shaking her foot.
 

then,
her eyes met mine for
the smallest amount of time
so she could say,
 

"i'm sorry."
 

i was taken aback.
"...for... what?"
 

she gulped.
the nervous signs were still playing on her features.
"... i..."
 

i had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.
 

"... i..."
 

she looked at me.
and i could see genuine sorrow in her eyes.
"... i... kissed Vincent at prom..."
 

my eyes widened.
pieces of the puzzle were finally coming together.
 

"and... he thought it was... it was you..."
 

i was speechless.
the words couldn't form.
Kate was now crying,
and i could see that
all this time, that
kiss was torturing her.
 

"i'm so sorry-"
 

then i erupted.
"i lost my best friend because of you!
i... i... I LOST SAM!"
 

"and i'm so-"
 

"you didn't tell Vincent did you?
because then he'd never take you back!
he's not mad at what i did... HE'S MAD AT WHAT YOU DID!"
 

she was silent.
 

"YOU RUINED MY LIFE, KATE!
did you act out of jealousy?!
did you hate me that much?
all this time, were you just pretending to be my friend?
is this something you do at kennedy?
ANSWER ME!"
 

"i... i just wanted Vincent back and-"
 

"so you were selfish!"
 

"no i-"
 

"so you get to kiss Vincent
under /my/ name because he likes /me/ and not you
and then you get to ruin my relationship with sam and with vincent
because you thought, 'oh, if i can't have vincent, no one can' is that it?"
 

she shook her head.
"no Clare i would never-"
 

"save it!"
i snapped.
 

"i'm so, so, so, deeply sorry and-"
 

my hand flew across her cheek
leaving a red impression of my hand there.
"/i said, save it!/"
 

i stomped off to my car
and drove away.
 

 

 
it was later that i realized that
i did something that i would later regret
even though i was trying to do the exact opposite.
 

 
- Clare.
 

 

 

whoooooooooaaaaaaaaa.
this story--
i'm just like clare.
i don't know!
it's like,
hm,
kinda good,
but kinda not.
 
aw well
i won't dwell on it.
CAUSE NOW I GET TO WRITE FOR ROOTS! :D

ROOTS

9 months ago - 201 views
ROOTS

the relationships in roots.

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inside brady's closet.

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all about brady

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a new life.

10 months ago - 239 views
a new life.
my example audition for brady (:
 
for my group ROOTS
 
if you're interested in role-playing, please check it out!
http://www.polyvore.com/roots/group.show?id=144088
 

desired name: bradden "brady" deven rhodes
 
age (25-29): twenty-seven
 
character's biography: brady gets bored easily. she got bored of her parents at age 11, and at age 15, she was bored of charleston. it wasn't just that she didn't fit--her unruly hair, smudged makeup, and scrunched grimace weren't what you'd normally see in charleston--it was because she didn't want to feel bored anymore. the only time she wouldn't feel bored was with her four other best friends. or when she was in love. you can imagine how that panned out with her restless behavior. after a few weeks that feeling would escape her, and she'd fall back to her friends. eventually, though, she made the decision to leave charleston, and consequently, her friends. she severed all acquaintances with them... she was only 18. this decision rendered her a new blow: not knowing what to do. she went to the only place she knew about: New York City. of course, this decision gave her a new spark. she was restless in a restless city. she finally fit in. she quickly made friends, moved to Brooklyn, and now works in as a flower girl, selling flowers in a cart between E 25th and Clarendon. she is no longer bored. but every once in a while, she thinks of her friends. and missing them. her restless nature kicks up. of course, she'd never leave brooklyn, but she decided to spend a summer in her roots.
 
character's style: punk, hipster, edgy, biker, loves layers and accessories, studs, spikes, dark, heavy make-up, and anything cheap.
 
link to a collection coming soon.
 
model: kaya scodelario
 
love interest's (if any) model(s): shia labeouf, tom sturridge
 
love interest's (if any) bio(s):
 
logan james st. john
twenty-nine
shia labeouf
logan has a very long list of accolades. he graduated from harvard law at age 21, plays the game of stocks on Wall Street (quite successfully), and is renowned as a playboy, just to name a few. he first met brady when they were 7 and 9, respectively. they were neighbors. both logan and brady had no interest in each other, in fact, they couldn't stand each other. brady hated anything with a schedule, or anyone in a suit. which she though logan was practically born in. and logan hated brady just because she was so da/mn stubborn. but now, 20 years later, brady's former impression of logan has changed, especially when they had no idea who they were with. he's stopped wearing so many suits, but she's still as stubborn as ever.
 
rhett derrick st. john
twenty-eight
tom sturridge
rhett met brady when they were 7 and 8, respectively. they were neighbors... sound familiar? it's because rhett and logan are brothers. and in true brother fashion, rhett plays the foil to logan's personality. he likes loose clothes, that make him look like a hobo with his skinny figure, and anything that's out of place. he sees the world through a different pair of glasses--a kaleidoscope if you will. artist eyes. rhett likes brady--always had. he even set up his art studio in brooklyn to be with her when she left. but brady sees him as a friend--or a pest--another reminder of her life in charleston. she's just as stubborn as ever.
 
 
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bradden "brady" rhodes
age eighteen
 

||
 

"fine then! leave! leave your life here! don't come back!"
my mother yelled.
"if you're so bored then /leave!/"
 

i scowled, "you're so controlling!"
 

"i don't have to take care of you anymore!"
she continued. "you're eighteen! get the he/ll out of my life! see if you're so bored when you're cold on the street!"
 

i grabbed my jacket in a fit of fury
and slammed the door in her face.
 

the taxi my mother had called earlier in her rage was waiting for me
on our gravel driveway.
 

"airport," i said.
 

the driver was silent but nodded in understanding.
 

once we began driving, i thought of my friends.
and how this could break them apart.
 

i didn't tell them.
i didn't tell them i wanted to go,
get away, and never come back.
 

i knew they'd talk me out of it and i'd still be here,
miserable.
 

i looked out my window,
the sun was a beautiful rainbow of colors,
it was probably something the tourists liked best about this place.
 

"the setting sun is like art,"
rhett used to say to me.
"everyone knows how beautiful it is,
but no artist can exactly do it justice.
and everyone knows that, but they accept it,
because even though an artist can't catch it's beauty,
it's because it's unattainable, and we have to keep striving for it."
 

he told me that when i was 10.
and i probably hated him for saying that,
 

but now,
it made a lot of sense.
 

we never know when to stop
because we never feel we do ourselves justice,
so we just have to keep pining for it.
 

and maybe,
we'll find it.
 

 

 

it was brooklyn, new york, ny.
 

i was standing in brooklyn, new york, ny,
with a sweater and duffel in my hand.
 

it was a lot different in the travel books.
obviously romanticized.
 

i closed my eyes and knew what was going to happen next--
everything would change, but was i really ready for it?
 

rhett's voice pounded in the back of my head,
"we have to keep striving for it."
 

if you haven't seen the brooklyn bridge at sunrise,
do it.
 

it's something the travel books got right.
 

i never felt like i belonged,
but here,
watching the sun rise over the bridge,
i did.
 

maybe i found what i was looking for--
 

a new life.
 

xx brady